the eternal student

My cup overfloweth

There's alot of inner change going on right now. I feel the full blessedness of having a great job at Micron, three awesome boys, a killer wife, one sweet almost perfect dog who i hope will shed his lazy tendencies although I don't have my hopes up because he is Lynn's dog, a psycho cat, and pretty much the best place for us in the world to live. I mean- I'm going to go fishing and swimming on my lunch break tomorrow because I can. Tonight I took the Gideon and the Isaac to ride their bikes while I fished the Boise with the Phineas on my back. Meanwhile Lynn was at the dog park getting some mommy alone time and Arlo was learning from other mature dogs on how to chase a ball and swim. It just doesn't get old to me how much our family loves being outside. They say kids these days are spending 50% less time outside than kids were 6 years ago. Not our kids baby. It just doesn't get old to me how much I love the freedom to bike, fish, swim, hike, play in the Boise community.

At the same time I feel how precarious all of this is. The recent layoffs at Micron and in nearly all semiconductor companies makes me realize it could all be gone in a moment. IBM just laid off the some of the division in Poughkeepsie NY where I interned one summer and almost took a job except it fell through by God's grace. So my heart and mind are prepared now to lose it all. It's a bittersweet spot-to realize what you have, to be okay losing it, and yet working hard to enjoy it all the more. At the same time I have complete faith that God will provide. We overbought on our house and it is hurting us finiancially, that is partly why I'm at delivering for Pizza Hut. It's a short term problem though- I know this house is meant to be blessing to us and others. So we are praying that an international student attending Boise State University will choose to live with us to learn English and American culture. We have a yearning to share our lives and this seems like a perfect way, plus it would help us financially.

So far Pizza Hut has been great. I actually enjoy the job so far- I just can't think about the pay scale compared to what I earn at Micron. I've always loved to know every nook and cranny of my surroundings and delivering pizzas allows me to do just that. Plus I get to drive around and listen to the BBC all night. In a strange way I enjoy washes dishes so that finds right in with closing the store at nights. And then there are the people I work with-they definitely bring me out of my engineering nerd self. It's strange, but I'm gaining confidence in myself to pretty much tackle anything set out before me.

So my heart is full. I am driven more and more by an external desire, that ether called God's Will and Peace is forming into visible shapes. I know God is shaping me for something unique through this Micron/Pizza Hut combination. When Andy is driven by things outside of himself he is happiest.

Lynn's garden is bearing squash, beans, and more goodness everyday.

Posted by andyp at August 1, 2007 12:53 AM | TrackBack